Starstruck

Ok, I actually have no idea what to write. I just didn't want the first post that shows up on my blog to be so negative. (Came up with title after typing the whole post) I haven't been doing much lately. Just studying and browsing on eBay and the sort. I suppose I was a little starstruck this week. Not anything major, just minor things which made me happy.

I managed to get myself a dress from Chessie. In fact it was just this morning. =D She was having her Spring sales and I snagged a dress from Cheesie!!! Weee!!! I really do admire her. She's a fellow Malaysian that is determinedly fashionable. I don't agree 100% with what she wears. I mean I don't think anyone ever likes every single thing their fashion icon wears after all. But I like her style most of the time. The point is though, that she dares to dress differently in Malaysia. Not that anyone is going to shoot you down for dressing out of the norm, but its just that I know some people tend to stare or have preconceived notions. Like boots are for hookers, people with lightly dyed hair are "lala" and ridiculous things like that. I also really like the way she writes. It's nothing fanciful but its funny and nice to read! Unlike mine. Plus she's super awesome at make up and hair!!! Learned the cat ears hairstyle from her. It's really cute!!! So anyway, I emailed her about the dress I wanted to buy and she replied! Obviously. As I said, it's nothing major, it's just...Cheesie replied my email!!! =DDDDD


Next, I'm gonna talk about another pretty Malaysian girl, Careen Tan. You might know her as the girl who won Adidas Neo Ambassador competition, or the girl in the Only In Malaysia short by JinnyBoyTV that has gone viral. I don't really know her at all. I just randomly saw her pic while I was googling for PC Fair info and thought that she was really pretty even though she wasn't wearing those fancy costumes and was just in a normal bright green shirt. I can't remember how I stumbled upon her blog, but well I did and have been stalking reading it when I have the time. She's is soooooo pretty. She embodies everything I want in life. Of course she has her own set of problems and no one's life is perfect, but it does seem like it from the outside. So, I complimented her in reply to one of her tweet pics and she replied with a "Thanx babe!". I was literally grinning ear to ear. I think my bf has gotten bored of hearing about her from me. He actually has her as a friend on Fb because he took her pic once in PC Fair and so added her to tag her. Back then she didn't have her fan page so she added strangers into her personal account so that she could get tagged. Unfair!!! I'm only her fan on her fan page! Plus he has seen her at events a few times!!! Hmph!!!

Finally, it's a reply from a Dramione (Draco + Hermione) fanfiction author. If you don't know, I am in love with the idea of Draco Malfoy and Hermione Granger being together. If you don't know who they are, I think you should reconsider your social life. 

HAVE YOU NOT WATCHED HARRY POTTER?!?! 

*calms self down* I am a HUGE Harry Potter fan and so still read fanfiction, but only of the dramione kind. Their stories are so full of passion and angst. So there's this awesome awesome author called Bex-chan, and it was her birthday and so I wished her Happy Birthday and she replied in thanks! Ya ya, nothing major again. But I got a reply from her!!! She must have had thousands of wishes and she still replied me!!! Hehehe!!!

Ya, so that's why I'm starstruck this week. The one thing that could make my entire year starstruck would be to meet Tom Felton (actor of Draco Malfoy). In fact, I don't need to meet him. Just a reply tweet from him would have me on cloud nine for weeks! *fingers crossed!*

Ramblings

I don't know if it is appropriate to wallow in self-pity and worthlessness here. I'm not looking for sympathy, merely to vomit out what I feel onto some platform, in the hopes of alleviating this feeling.


Sometimes, I feel so under-accomplished. I am turning 24 this year. Omg, so old. Two dozen years on this planet, and what have I done? Nothing worth noting, that's for sure. I haven't secured a degree under my belt, have not earned a single dime, and have not achieved any of my dreams (shallow as they may be). My bf psychoanalyzed me the other day, and told me that I am easily influenced by my surroundings and I try too hard to fit into the norm. All around me, I see my friends reaching the end point in their training, while I have yet to begin. Some have set up blogshops and whatnot, generating income even before they graduate. Some have part-time jobs and are really great at it. Some are engaged/married and set to face the future together.

I dream. I dream a lot. I wanted to have an eBay store, to sell my second hand clothes. But that's not really a practical dream, is it? I'm not exactly the most fashionable person, plus I rarely shop at high street stores. I wanted to become a model. Again, not realistic. I don't have a clear complexion, can't put on foundation properly, not tall enough, plus I don't have the exact body for it (even if I like to think so sometimes). I wanted to be a singer, but I can't sing to save my life. I wanted to have a famous blog, but am not nearly interesting enough nor do I update often enough. I wanted to be an air stewardess, but well my parents and bf were kind of against it, since I will be away for too long. See how unrealistic I am?


I acknowledge that my dreams are shallow. You might think, what about being a successful pharmacist? Isn't that supposed to be your main goal in life? You are soon to be achieving that after all. The practical and boring goal, yes. Not that I don't enjoy working as one, because I do. But it's not what I really REALLY like. You know what I mean? It's the job that gets money in, not the job you've always dreamed of having since you were a kid. Sure, every job has their perks and disadvantages, but I still yearn for it. I'm jealous, oh so jealous of people working as what I've always wanted to be. Of people who have the freedom and ability to do what they like.


I've always wanted to be known. Maybe it stems from how insignificant I felt back in the early days of high school. I hated my first year in high school. I hardly knew anyone in class, and the popular kids made fun of me. So perhaps that formed the thought that popular people wield the power. Or maybe I'm just naturally an attention seeker. But anyway, the point is that I want to be known, in a good way. That is my ultimate shallow goal. But who's going to know me by being a pharmacist? You don't go around telling people:

"OMG!!! Do you know this pharmacist? She is THE BEST!!! You just have to get your medication from her because she is (lists good pharmacist's qualities)!!!"

You don't, do you? No one cares about pharmacists. It's not like doctors, where patients will tell their friends/family about this awesome doctor who was so patient and understanding and accurate and other excellent doctor qualities. I can't even be known in my professional field. Wtf.

Some people have told me that I am unerringly positive. Well, here you go. I'm not positive all the time. I have bouts of self-pity and whatnot.


I don't know what is the point of this blogpost. I'm sorry if you wasted 5 minutes of your life reading this. Not really. Bye!

*p.s. On a brighter note, I'm getting my eyebrows done at Benefit after my exam!!! I've never actually specifically been to do my brows before. It was only when I did make overs for proms. So yay! Excited!!!

Truth

It's been ages since I've typed a blog post. I know. Almost 9 months ago. But to my friends who just wanted to be kept updated with my life, well, I've been tweeting and pushing it to Facebook as well as placed it on top of my blog. So I guess you can't complain? Haha. However, if you really want to know what's happening in my life (and not what I had for dinner), I'll tell you now.

The most significant thing is that I have not graduated. Yes, you read it correctly. The truth is out. I'm still a student. If I have told you that I am working, well, I'm not lying either. I'm working for experience. I have not started my pre-registration placement, but am working at the pharmacy that is going to sponsor me. My final exam is on the 4th of May. Just one final paper separating me from my pharmacy degree certificate. I'll not bore you with the story of why and how I'm still a student. All you have to know is that I'll graduate this June. Yes, I WILL. No more screw ups. Not in terms of this anyway.

Why did I only decide to tell it now? Well, let's just say that I have finally come to terms with the situation. I'm not exactly ashamed of failing. I didn't mind telling people about it, even right at the start. I didn't have a problem accepting this failure. I just didn't fancy the things people would say behind my back, or the pitying looks they might give me. So I kept the truth to a select bunch of people. Don't take it personally if I didn't tell you. It might have just been because it was easier to say "Yes, I am working" than to say "Yes, I am working, but I haven't graduated because...", especially if you don't know anything about registering as a pharmacist. After explaining over and over again, I'm bound to get tired of explaining. So please don't hold me to it. I have finally decided that I don't particularly care what others think about me. As long as those that are close to my heart supports me, I'll be fine.

That's all I really have to say at this moment. I'll leave you with my latest cam whore pic. =)

 

Blogging from work

Hiya!!! I'm blogging from work!!! How cool is that? Haha. I'm on my lunch break now. The staff are seriously super friendly and I'm really enjoying it tremendously. It's tiring, yes but I don't really feel it when I'm at work, it's only once I reach home I realise how tired I am. But that's good you know? I'd love to be this happy throughout my entire career. I look forward to going to work everyday (though I hate getting up early).

I took a later bus today because I got up late (oops!) but I still arrived before my boss, so that's fine. Haha!!! I missed my breakfast so I had 1.5 cups of coffee and a cheese and onion pasty that S got for me. My colleagues really are the friendliest bunch!!!

Alright, I better go now. Lunch time's almost up.

Bye! =D

First Day At Work!!!

I can't type much because it's late, but IT WAS AWESOME!!! Seriously, I didn't expect it to be this fantastic and enjoyable!!! The staff there were all really friendly, and my tutor is great!!! Also the previous pre-reg is still there and she's from Malaysia as well so obviously we get a long well. Then there's a 2nd year student (who's going on to 3rd year) who's worked there since last summer, so he knows everything already. Super fun!!! I did almost everything today!!! Ordering, dispensing, dosettes, methadone, CD register, sending off prescriptions, repeats!!! Gosh it was really fun!!! I did get kind of sleepy after lunch. So I think I'll get a coffee after lunch to prevent the yawns. That's all I'll say for now. Gotta get to bed soon.

Nitez!!!

Nottingham - Take 4 - Success!!!

Hi everyone!!! Sorry for the delay. I was crazily tired the past few days. Yes, as the title suggests, I DID IT!!! Hahaha!!! Finally made it to Nottingham sort of on time. I missed the first bus, but it was not my fault (although I was late by a few mins)!!! The bus stop I was waiting at was the wrong one. Luckily a kind old man pointed me in the right direction. So then I took the 8.33am bus and reached about 10am. Wee!!! Then obviously, I went shopping!!! Haha.

What I wore.
Check out my cute purple devil phone case! It even has a small sharp tooth and cute horns!!!

First stop, Victoria Centre:

These 2 maxi dresses were only £10 each, but I decided that I hardly wear them so I didn't buy any. Even though they were luxuriously soft and form fitting.


I went to La Senza, TopShop, and quite a few other shops. I bought this crystal leopard case for £10. It's the normal price for it, BUT I was in a hurry that I didn't check the quality properly. Urgh. It sparkles, yes, brilliantly. However, the crystals fall off quite easily. The man who sold it to me had the nerve to tell me that they don't! Grrr... I've already lost two and have superglue-ed back 4.

This pic is rather dark, but I assure you, it's beautiful!

Second stop, Starbucks!!!

Finally!!! I've not had one for more than a month!!!

Third stop, Primark!

Heh! I didn't take any pictures there, but these are some things I saw in a shop while walking to my fourth stop.

So cool!!! Keep calm and ... stuff!!! Would have bought one were they not so expensive.

Fourth stop, H&M...

Here's where it got kind of weird. I was walking towards H&M and this random British photographer said "ni hao" to me. Normally I would get irritated by it cuz he's assuming I'm from China. BUT, he said it in a friendly way so I just smiled back. If I could turn back time, Iwould have stayed the HELL away from him. Because he ended up following me down the street and said he would take some pics for me, and so he did and said he would print them for me now. So I felt obligated to follow him to Boots where he spent more than 30mins printing those damn pictures. Then he said he would take more and so I don't know like he was helping me and he looked so excited I just felt really bad and kind rude if I said I don't want to take anymore. Which is weird you know. Because I've always wanted to be a model, but I just felt so bored and uncomfortable!!! Not only that, he was SO FULL OF HIMSELF!!! Seriously, I've never met such a boastful person. The worst thing is he doesn't even realise. It's not like Mean Girls where the Plastics know they are full of themselves. He's like nice but he boasts about himself a lot but says it in a matter of fact kind of way. Which is soooooo annoying because he's still polite so I can't diss him and walk off you know? Urgh!!!

Because of him, I accidently gave him my house address. Stupid me. I wanted to give him my pharmacy address but I couldn't remember it. I should have told him I forgot and will email it to him. Damn me and my slow brain. Anyw, he wasn't even that good.

He took these with my phone. And these are the nice ones. The rest were horrible.

Here's part of the conversation and the entire 2 hours it was like that:

Him: Show your parents and your friends ok?

Me: Hmmm, ok.

Him: Then they will be like oh this guy takes good pictures, we want to meet him! And your friends will be oh, these are so nice!!! And your bf will say wow this guy is good! I want to copy him!

Me: *laughs weakly while thinking omg can you stfu and stop following me?*

Seriously? My parents would wanna meet you? Even if you did take good photos, why the hell would my parents wanna meet you? Does taking good photos imply in any way you will be a good bf? NO! Btw, he's a lousy bf. He ratted out his gf to me, if she's even real. He said she was childish, jealous, demanding, inconsiderate, while telling me how good he is. If you were a good bf, you wouldn't talk shit about your gf to a stranger. And honestly, not good getting married because you've not finished studying is a good reason. He was pissed because his gf asked him to marry her a few months before her visa expires, but he said no because he said he asked her before this and she said no and her reason was that because she had not finished studying and it was a stupid reason. Fuck you man. Who the hell wants to marry you anyw? I don't know how she stands him. She's a pretty Taiwanese apparently. All the more reason to think he made these stories up. Even typing this makes me angry. Throughout the entire 2 hours I had to be nice to him, compliment him on him normal pics, saying he sounds like a good bf, saying the pics he took of me are nice. God, I hate being pretentious!!!

Also, because of him, I did not manage to shop in H&M, didn't go to Oriental Mart (my oyster sauce!!!), and couldn't return a pair of £6 wedges!!! Hmph!!! Plus he smokes so his breath and clothes stank of it. Ewww!!!

I finally said I needed to go back around 6pm and he said he would accompany me to the bus station. I kept saying it's alright but he said its only polite to do so and he does that for all his friends. Urghhh!!! I didn't want him to know which bus I took home goddamnit!!! Now I can't even go out without looking around suspiciously, even though my address is still not on google maps. But its a small town. If he drove around for about 30mins he'd be able to find it. So yes, I'm afraid. It might be conceited of me to think people would come and stalk me, but it's always better to be careful, no?

So I came home feeling rather scared. It was a wonderful day, but it got rotten at the end. =(

Just what I wore the next day to go into town

Anyw, work starts tomorrow. Am I prepared? No. I'm dead.

Nottingham - Take 3 - Room

OMG. This is the 3rd attempt and I failed, yet again!!! I sound so happy about it but I'm not!!! Seriously. I know I slept late last night but I really really wanted to be able to go to Nottingham today. Nothing special happening there today, but it's already the freaking 3rd time you know? Anyw, I woke up at 11 in the morning all nice and comfy and rested, and JUST KNEW that I had missed all 4 alarms (where each rings for 4 more times). Damn. It's scary what I can sleep through.

That's all. I didn't go anywhere today. But I watched the first 2 Harry Potter movies again!!! The first movie was out 10 years ago but it felt just like yesterday that I watched it. I still remember almost everything in the movie. Oh, I love Harry Potter. The books and the movies I mean, not the character. I'm somewhat in love with Draco Malfoy, though I know he's a mean person and a rather cowardly character. My sister used to have dreams about Harry Potter, with me and her in it. I was Malfoy's gf. Oh, how I loved hearing her dreams (eventhough she portrayed me as some bimbo). Hahaha!!! Those were the days. Now that the last movie is out, and it's all going to end. Though, not really. It all lives on in us. But I'm very happy to be able to say I am part of the Harry Potter generation. The generation that grew up with Harry Potter.

Ok, that's all for today. I hope I'll be able to make it for the 8.03am bus tomorrow morning, Wish me luck!!!