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Wednesday 23 August 2006

What Would It Take

I can't hv u now
i can't love u now
'cause u won let me in...

if only u cared
if only u put some effort
i could give u the world of atttention

what would it take for u to love me
what would it take for u to care
what would it take for u to just look at me
n see how broken up my heart has been...

is it too much to ask for attention
is it too much to ask for affection
from the 1 u love

my world has crumbled
but i'll build it up again
n slowly i'll learn to smile again

what would it take for u to love me
what would it take for u to care
what would it take for u to just look at me
n see how broken up my heart has been

no matter how much u hurt me,
somehow i still care
i can't hate u anymore

i gave n i gave n i gave
all my best
but it juz wasn't enough

what would it take for u to love me
what would it take for u to care
what would it take for u to just look at me
n see how broken up my heart has been

after all this,
if u asked for another chance
i would still willingly give it to u

i miss u...

Friday 4 August 2006

Sometimes i feel lk an idiot...still havin feelings for my ex...its useless thinking of him ad...plus he treated quite badly...so its lk i shudnt still lk him for wat he did to me...but...i still do...haih...hope it goes away faster...i don wan still b wanting him...hmmm,i said i won trust him ad...but i'm quite sure if he ask me again...i will give him another try...haih...trials n finals coming soon summore...must concentrate on studyin...i noe i can do well if i study wan...but then i'm lazy...no motivation ad..ppl alwiz say that gettin into relationships will make u neglect ur studies rite?but for me it won...it makes me study harder....wan to beat my bf in exams n stuff lk that...or wan to score well so i can get into a colleg in the same country...sumtin la...but it motivates me to study...now its lk there's nothing...nothing left to look forward to...hmmm,well,life has to go on...so i hv to try to find the silver lining in every situation...i'm sorry to all my readers for alwiz complaining bout my love life...juz need sumwhere to release all the emotions...

Well,i almost missed yest charmed!!! i missed 15mins of it...so sad...but for all those who watched,baby chris's face was so cute when they wicken him!!! baby wyatt too when leo n piper were persuading him to stop thinking that it's his fault...they're both so cute!!! oh,not to mention leslie too...haha...phoebe was lk so funny when she was acting lk a kid...she called him 28 times in 2 hrs!!haha...dam funny...n the reason she gave was so funny...her redail button spoil...haha...well anyw,gtg ad...hv to sleep...tmr morning hv to study for math test later...nitez...

Thursday 3 August 2006

Stay back after college...

Wah...yest n today i stay back after col wit my classmates...so fun lo...we do hw in the library ad then after that go eat...hehe...then they all very funny wan...alwiz laughing wan lo...but still can do hw wor...cuz its lk if i do faster then they will say y u so fast wan...then they start to ctach up...then i will do faster so that they cant beat me or sumtin...haha...i feel that i can do more work lk that lo...if i go home le,i sure use that time i to do sumtin else wan...sleep la...or laze around la...nothing productive lo...but if i stay back wit them i will do at least lk a few exercises...good enuf la...better then not doing anything at all rite?But expensive lo lk that...everytime eat bout 10 bucks gone...so sum tong...but then its fun la...n it helps me to forget bout my ex...so next week gonna do it again...but next week cannot skip math tuition ad la...cannot alwiz skip...not good...yest is bcuz i wanted to finish the chem past year paper...so i skipped...if not i won skip wan...this is the 2st time i skip math tuition le...chem tuition oso i skip twice ony...n 1 time i bcuz i accident b4 so i got reason ma...hmmm,but i come back home then very tired ad lo...feel lk sleeping ony...shower liao,on the com,check friendster if i got mood,go on msn for awhile,if i wan then write blog...after that,time past sooo fast...12 midnight ad...then go to sleep lo...next day,repeat the same thing...lk quite boring lo...that's y stay back wit classmates is fun...sumtin i don do often...if not a,my life lk got routine wan...not nice wan...will get bored very fast lo...anyw,thanks yih wern n chew fatt...u 2 help me alot lo in forgettin my ex n making me do hw...Thank You!! =)

Tuesday 1 August 2006

Feelings...

When i finally figured out who i reli lk...its too late...cuz he ad broke up wit me...i'm talkin bout my most recent ex btw...i din get a new bf or anything...still the same ex...haih...can say that i expected it la...cuz our relationship din go that well the 1st time we tried...but still...i had some hope that it wud the 2nd time...i guess he was juz infatuated but i reli did lk him...he wasnt suppose to mean so much...but i guess i reli had a soft spot for him...after all,i did lk him when i was f1 too...he was reli reli sweet at the beginning...he said stuff lk 'i hope i can u every second in my life' and 'u bein in my arms tell me alot bout u' , 'how beautiful u r...how loving u r...' , and 'ur beautiful...to me..' god,i miss those times...but that was a long time ago...lk 4 months ago...i gave up hope of him treatin me lk that again ad...i juz hoped that he wud at least teman me during break n after col or b4 col...i don need him to teman me everyday...i mean i wan to c him everyday but he don hv to teman me all the time...is that reli hard to do?i guess its hard for him...haih...now i'm missiing him lk hell...n wats the use...its not lk he'll come back to me...he ony cares or me as a fren...i don understand...wat went wrong?y didn't it work out?n well,if u r reading this,the reply i sent...it was so...harsh...cuz i was hurt n pissed...i don hate u at all...i nvr did...well,its not that bad...it ony hurts when i'm breathing...my heart ony breaks when its beating...my dreams ony die when i'm dreaming...i might look happy from the outside...but thats bcuz i keep it inside most of the time...well,gotta do my hw ad...altho i don feel lk doin...don feel lk doin much of anything nowadays anyw...then after that hv to cry myself to sleep ad...nitez every1...